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A splash of hakeber's on-off daily life.

PAIN.

My back was perfectly fine since the beginning of the holidays.

Then all because I didn't sit properly for ten minutes whilst watching Journey 2 The mysterious Island with Rg, Jenny and Mel, I may have sprained my tail bone. WTC:(

In loads of pain since last night, and I don't even know how to get rid of it.

Most probably have to wait till Monday morning to give KK a call :(

And I had the worst bout of cramps in my whole entire life. Totally bed-ridden. Until my dad bought the painkillers for me, if not I might have died. Blacked out for about 15 mins after popping the pills. Bad day with pain..............

 

Hope everything gets better. Let's hope my prayers work:)

Expectations, exceptions...words that start with an E!

Feel like typing in PURPLE.

I haven't been blogging for quite some time. Things have NOT been hectic, so I really should take more time to do self-reflection.

Oh boy, I have the need to reflect on a regular basis, I can just feel my (dyed) brown hair turn white instantly. This is terrible.

Went for a job interview at S.A.M last week, I really hope the woman calls me and steph soon, as she agreed to after CNY.

But, Jocelyn told me today that she may be able to get me a job at...Tommy Hilfiger :) oooohhh I want.

I mean, although it's a sales assitant position, it'll look good on my CV.

I'm such a typical Singaporean, tsk.

However it is really a good opportunity, which I do need quite badly!

On a sad note, sent off Guetghee at the airport this evening :( I'm going to miss Gsquared ALOT. She helped me out so much, in so many ways that I cannot thank her enough. Remembering the times spent hanging out in the artroom at unearthly morning hours trying to skip morning assembly. I mean I would be slothing around sleeping, while she studied and paint. Now I can see why we turned out so differently. hahaha

We were never caught :) ohyeahhh

But I'm excited that she's going NZ to pursue her studies! So proud of her!

Hungout with RINNN afterwards. I miss her so much, because I'm so used to meeting her everyday in school. Especially since we're partners. Poly is going to be quite different. But I won't say I'm really afraid, maybe the fact that I will not know anyone might even turn out for the better:) A fresh new start. That will be good, for me, for everyone.

Anyway, back to the title. It really sucks having your expectations crushed. The saying of Do not wish for too much, really bites me in my back everytime. Do I have overly high expectations? :(

I just keep expecting things, but end up disappointed. And I choose to free up my schedule and week and everything for nothing.

I don't even know whether I'm being selfish at this stage. Sometimes, I can't be bothered to care anymore.


Going around in circles. Getting tangled in a web of disatisfaction.

Hopefully everything goes well. It's so difficult to remain happy although I lie to myself that I actually am.

Because I don't see any of it. Your love. They say action over words right? Well maybe I'm being selfish, or your personality isn't the type to express it in that way. But it seems to me that you just cannot be bothered. Shouldn't you be thinking about what they would want.

I should be asleep right now

I can't seem to fall asleep even though I'm awfully tired.

Today, my sister finally returned from London:) It's really nice to finally see her after such a long time. My Mother is probably in her BEST mood for the entire year. Went for lunch and icecream and some marketing @ shopandsave with Issac, Daniel, Auntie Karen and Uncle John. They're quite fun to hang out with :) Oh, We might be going on a short trip to Genting together in January. Hmmm.....Anyway, then for dinner, we had Bibimbap for dinner!! Just love what delicious Korean food adds to your day.

Apparently, today's the day for the lunar eclipse. Too lazy to type the rest of my thoughts, but after I read the bible (Psalms 4:8) I felt more at peace. I know that God is watching over me and protecting me, so I should cast my needless fears away.

Okay I'm really going to fall asleep now....my eyelids are getting heavier.

Sometimes I feel like a really queer person, with a totally incomprehensible mind of my own. AWKWARD KID.

Going to drift off to the land of stars and adorable unicorns and sweet thoughts.

Need you now.

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin' for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

woah woaaah.

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin' at all

It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now

And I said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without

I just need you now

I just need you now (wait)

Ooo, baby, I need you now

 

I think it's going to get really bad tomorrow. Since I've nothing in the morning/afternoon to preoccupy my mind.

Anyway, I'm starting this LAMEASS telemarketing job tomorrow. I can't believe I am going to turn into the menace(severely annoying person) of the general population. The jason guy gave us a tour of the office, and well, lets just say I was a bit freaked out by how bleak everything seemed. But nevertheless, I GOT A JOB. Stupid wild honey doesn't want to call me back. FINE. Lose this nice temp waitress like me:( But actually I think they called, it's just that I missed it -_-

YOU HAVE TO STOP MISSING PEOPLE'S CALLS REBEKAH.

ANDDDDDDDDD :

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY RACHELANGHUIWEN

I don't think you'll see this, but if you do, thanks so much for sticking by me for the past 3 years. Surprisingly, it is so effortless (in a good way) to remain friends with you :) Never want to drift from you girlfriend xx

Okay that's it. I suck at blogging haha.

I've no idea what I am going to do right now. I already had a snack just now, so no, not going to eat again.

TUMBLR x

FB x

TWITTER x

ODJ x

BIBLE? okay not yet

CIAO then :)


Missionary trip tomorrow:)

I'm slightly nervous. But I know it'll be for a good cause. Besides, there are really nice people coming along this trip with me.

I hope that I'll be able to bond better with them, and become a better person??? haha

I can't believe I was RANDOMLY made the 'children ministry head'...well there's only 30 children, so it's not so bad.

I'm staring at my lucky bunny. Its just so cuteeee. <3 Can't think of a name for it yet, because it's TOOCUTE.

 

UGH SLEEPY. I'm looking forward to buying a new bag that can fit stuff inside...how vague. Because I'm tired of all my bags. Wait, they aren't even nice. And it's not good to carry around backpacks all the time:(

INDONESIA HERE I COME.

 

Pathetic

When did I get so weak.

Was I always like this? I think I'm not cut out for such complicated things. They just bring me down, and brings out all the worse in me.

Omg, I think what my sister said was right.

Ohno

I'm sorry I went running at the botanical gardens when you wanted me not to.

Sorry.

But it's really retarded. It's so much nicer to run there than at the stadium....how is it not safe??!

Anyway, I hope she doesn't ground me beyond wednesday(which is tmr)

I really need to go watch breaking dawn.

Loving the new onsugar

It's really funky and clean.

I'm so sleepy, even though I slept for 4 hours this afternoon.

:(

Running through bio mcq 2009 tys right now. Hopefully I get 38;39/40??

Then tomorrow I can focus on shopping with Aerin ;) excitedddd.

Will it work out?

I had a lot of things to say. But once I switched on the laptop, I suddenly forgot everything.

But I'm really confused right now...or rather making a big deal out of nothing.

Well, there would be some sort of resolution to this stupid situation by next week.

We;ll see.

 

Oh Dear God please Help me.